Tuesday, October 31, 2006

THIS IS MY REVELATION...


I don’t spend enough time in prayer. I don’t enter into the prayer meeting of heaven nearly as often as I should. If you consider Jesus life on earth, and I think I have spoken of this before, but if you think of His life on earth. Ask yourself "What was His life on earth about mostly?" Answer: Christ’s life on earth was a life of prayer. Luke 5:16, and many other verses in the Bible will give reference to the fact that Jesus spent more time in prayer alone or with his disciples than he did in teaching. The secret to His public ministry was His private ministry in prayer alone or with His disciples. Jesus “often withdrew to lonely places and prayed”

In Luke 9, the disciples asked Jesus to teach them to pray. Why? Because they saw him always praying and they realized that was the answer, the “secret weapon”. They saw Jesus was always praying and that was the only time they asked Him to teach them anything because they had revelation of the importance and the power of prayer.

And if you ever wonder what Jesus is doing now, in heaven, I can tell you – and you probably know than answer by now too – He is praying. There is a prayer meeting going on 24/7 in heaven (neat little rhyme there hey?). And whenever I drop to my knees or I cry out in prayer – then I am entering the prayer meeting of heaven – the never ceasing prayer meeting. Jesus is still praying.

You see satan doesn’t really mind if we go to church every Sunday, or if we become actively involved in serving on church teams or going to home groups. He doesn’t mind if we are on the choir or the worship team or even if we read our Bibles everyday (which is not bad things to do) – as long as we don’t pray, he wants us to get so involved in things, anything that will keep us out of prayer. We can do anything as a “Christian” and satan will not really be worried about us – but when we pray, when we become active prayers living prayer filled lives, then satan worries, cause then we are plugging in to that prayer meeting in heaven. Prayer is so important, prayer is so powerful and without it your life as a Christian will be an empty one.

That is why I have been battling to hear what God has to say to me because I haven’t been praying – not as I should be. I haven’t been plugging into my prayer meeting with Jesus and I have felt a definite lack and emptiness in my life.








Thank you Lord for revealing this to me today. I am going to spend time in prayer right now. I would want someone one day to ask me to teach them to pray – simply because they see me praying ALL the time.

FLUFF


This is my new favourite animal!! It's called a Dolphant. They are so cute! And I have heard that they are as intelligent as Dolphins too. I want one!!




Yesterday I was getting ready to go to gym. I took my track pants out of the closet and put them on but while I was walking around in my room getting my shirt and socks etc something really felt funny in my pants leg, right at the bottom. When I stopped to check what was going on I found my pink g-string sticking out the bottom of my pants. They abviously got washed with my pants and got stuck inside them or something - but can you imagine if I went to gym before the fell out? I could have been on the Orbitrek and my g-string would have fallen out - people would be thinking "how'd she do that??"
I would be mortified, I don't think I could have shown my face at the gym again. Thank goodness I checked what felt so funny before leaveing!! LOL!!

Oh gosh, I realise my writing is a bit fluffy lately, but that's because I am expecting a revelation. I can feel something happening within me - but it's not clear yet what it is. As soon as it becomes clear I will share it with you. Things are just a bit hazy right now, and I don't know if it's because God wants to reveal it to me slowly or because I am not quite as tuned in as I should be (probably the latter). I will be spending alot more time in His presence so as to discover what it is He is waiting to reveal to me.


This is an Eletee, much bigger than the Dolphants, but they are very closely related. and their trunks are very useful for breathing, they often use it as a snorkel.




An interesting fact for you, today, the 31st October in 1517 Martin Luther nailed his thesis to the church door. He wanted the people to be taught the truth and not the doctrin that the church was teaching. And he put it on the door so that the people going to church would see it, not so much as a provocation - which ws pretty much how the Church leaders saw it.
"Luther" is an excellent movie, and it is one of my favourites! If you get an opportunity to watch it - please DO so.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

SATURDAY

Today was a really lekka day. I woke up at about 8:00 and then we went to gym. When we came home we lay in the garden soaking up some lovely sun. We both need a bit of a tan, it's been a loooong winter. Then we went to my mom's so she could adjust my jeans and a pair of pants which are all to big for me. It's so cool to have clothes that fit nicely again. Thanks Mom!!!

When we got to my mom's place my younger sister Madam was there too! So she and I took the kids for a milkshake, on our way we phoned Angel to come and join us quickly. It was realy fun to hang out with my sisters a bit again and we did a bit of planning for our sibling supper etc too. Madam wanted chinese takeout, so after the milk shakes we went with her to get that and we each got a fortune cookie too. That was fun.

One thing that wasn't so nice and kind of got tensions running a bit high was that some lady left her little girl in the car - and she was crying terribly. It was very upsetting, even though the car window was open - last week a 17 month old baby died cause it was left in the car. I think the granny saw us all gathering around the car -another lady joined us too. She came running telling us it was ok, and that she had been crying all the way to the mall in the car.
I still don't think it is very wise to do something like that, specially with people like Madam around. She'll just call the cops on yo ass!! LOL!!
Anyway, we headed back to mom's and Angel and Madam went home. While mom and I were busy in the sewing room Donovan came to see what we were doing and he was fiddling with moms nik-naks, one of which is Do-Do, I told him not to fiddle with the Do-Do, and he sid "It's not a Do-Do, it's a Pelletduck - meaning Pelican!! We laughed at him, poor lil thing. But he is funny.

When my pants were all done we also headed home for supper and all that. The kids are watching tv at the moment and Marke is playing Playstaion.
I am feeling tired now and I think I will be going to bed soon.

Enjoy your weekend further whatever you're doing. Keep warm if it's cold and keep cool if it's hot.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

THIS AND THAT AND OTHER BLESSINGS

So the highlight of my day I would say was seeing my brother's photo along with his beautiful baby boy and his wifey, get this, On The Front Page Of The Local Newspaper!!!! Remember I said Nathan won that Baby Competition - well they put the picture in the paper. It is such a lovely photo of them three too. WOW! It is exciting stuff I tell you - exciting!!

It is so cool to be blogging from home. Happy is playing his playstation for a while and I am blogging. There seems to be some hectic weather brewing outside - lots of wind and all, but iy is nice and cool. A relief from the heat of the day.

I was just over at Angels blog, and she is typing up her's and Damiens's story of how they got to where they are and I suddenly realised how incredibly strong she really is and I also realised that the first few years of Damiens life - I wasn't really a part of her life. She went through SO much and I didn't even know half of it. It must have been really hard to be such a young mom and then still have to face such challenges with Damien too. I really admire you sis - you are a wonderful mom, and I just know that all your hard work and tears will all be rewarded someday. Damien is such a sweet child and I really love him lots too.
Love you!!!

And to end off, on Tuesday I was meditating on stuff about people. People like my husband, my children, my family and mostly my colleagues - and I was sort of unconsciously focusing on the negative things that they can do sometimes. (I don't have any negative points - in case you didn't know, which is why I can focus on other peoples negative points.) And I was praying silently for God to change them in this area or that area and that attitude and those mindsets and God spoke to me said, "Sweetheart, you should be praying 'Change me, change me,change me' not 'Change him, change them, change her.' "
And I realised that the only way other people in my life will change - in any little way, is for me to change me first. I need to change my mindsets and my attitude. I was really struck by this and I can tell you, since I have praying "Change Me" - I have seen some major changes!! It is so wonderful how God teaches me things in His own gentle and loving way. I would never have thought of asking Him to change me if He hadn't shown me. He amazes me all the time!

So that's about been my week. It is very windy outside and I am hoping it will rain. It has been extremely hot and the rain will be a big relief.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

DON'T BE AFRAID

What are you afraid of? What are your deepest fears that you never even talk about?
I used to be afraid of going to jail. I know it sounds funny - but I was terrified I would do something or screw up in some major way and end up doing time. Silly I know, but there it is. I don't fear that anymore, lol. I do have a terrible fear of confrontation. This one I am still working on, it's a very difficult one to beat - trust me. I am so afraid of confrontation that when I have to confront somebody on something my mouth gets dry, my heart beats so hard and so fast, my mind races, I cannot get my thoughts or words to make any sense and I get the shakes. It is crippling, and confrontation is actually such an important thing to be able to do. But God is working me through it, and I know I am getting better. The other day one lady at work was very rude to me and put the phone down in my ear. So I phoned her back and told her - nicely, but firmly - that there was no reason to be so rude, and she hung up again. Lemme tell you, phoning her back that one time was a HUGE accomplishment for me. Huge. I didn't phone her again, but I know God was testing me to see how far I would take it. Well I wimped out. But I know I will get on top of this thing one day, and then I will be a force to be reckoned with.

Any way, the point I actually trying to make here is that in Christ we don't need to fear anything. You see the enemy (satan) uses fear to trick us into believing we are powerless. I mean I used to be so afraid of spiders that even if there were pictures of them in a book or magazine I wouldn't be able to read any further. I would just freeze up or freak out. But when I had the revelation one day that God put us on earth in control of EVERYTHING I realised how silly my fear was. I mean how much more scarier am I to that poor lil spider??
And so God removed my fear - without my even realising it. I only realised I wasn't scared anymore the next tme I came across a spider. I was fine. Now, I don't go around picking them up or "loving" them - that's Angels favourite thing to do, but I don't freak out the way I used to. And it's wonderful to have that kind of revelation. If you read Psalm 91, you will see it is Psalm of protection, and that God will give His angels charge over you. When we live in Christ we need not fear anything. Go and read that Psalm - it is actually so amazing.

Fear can come between us and God's plan for us if we allow it too. I know how it feels when God suddenly has a message that He wants me to share - or a song He wants me to sing - if I am too afraid to go up or speak up and do it, then He cannot use me, and He will use someone else. But if I am bold and I obedient and I share what He has layed on my heart - then someone who needed to hear what I am sharing will be blessed by it, and I will be used more and more effectively by God.

I know that all my fears will soon be gone from me, my fear of confrontaion especially - and when it is, then I will be able to do God's will far more effectively than I have been able to up until now. Ask God to show you what yor fears are - and then ask Him to help you get over it and become stronger, He gave us the holy Spirit to do all these things through, lets take hold of the power He has given to us and lets advance God's kingdom. Without any fear.

So, don't be afraid. Be bold and be strong, for the Lord thy God is with you!!

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

CHECK THE PHOTOS

I don't have much to say today - too busy at the moment. But check out the photos on my photo blog - I manged to put some up there for you all to see.

BYE!!

Saturday, October 21, 2006

WOOOHOOO !!!!!!!

I have internet at home folks!!!!! I am sitting on my bed typing up a post while the kiddos sit with me and watch "Ghost Busters" How exciting is this!! I am so happy to finally be able to sit at home blogging!!!

Now I can actully blog a bit at home - and the Dawn Unplugged Patrol cannot bust me for blogging at work anymore - lol!!

So what's been happening with me in the lst week? Well not much, Donovan has a bit of an ear infection and I had to take him to the doctor on Thursday, but he is fine now.

Today we went and watched Nathan take part in the Cutest Kid competition and - of course - he won!!! We were all very excited to be there to watch him and support him and cheer for him. And he was so chuffed with his lil self too. He's the sweetest kiddo around - I swear!!!

Then when I came home Happy and I had a nap and then we went to gym. I have lost almost 10 full kilograms!!! I am SO excited about that too!! That'a about 20 pounds!! How cool is that??

Tomorrow we have a family day after church and that is going to be fun. We will braai and fellowship and there will be games to play and a jumping castle and a volleyball court. The kids are going to love it!!

Happy is actually home this weekend - another bonus, he has been working so late these last two weeks and I have missed him. At least he is at home this weekend. I missed him.

Anyway - I just wanted to share the happy news that I can blog a bit from home now - YAY!! Gotta go, I will pop round to you all in the week.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Your Celebrity Baby
Name Is.


Liberty
Fuchsia



Your Personality
Profile


You are pure, moral, and adaptable.
You tend to blend into your surroundings.
Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends.
You believe that you live a virtuous life...
And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye.
As a result, people tend to crave your
approval.



You Are 72%
Lady


Overall, you are a refined lady with excellent manners.
But you also know when to relax and not get too serious about
etiquette



You Are a Chocolate
Chip
Cookie


Traditional and conservative, most people find you comforting.

You're friendly and easy to get to know. This makes you very popular -
without even trying!




Your Dominant
Intelligence
is Musical Intelligence


Every part of your life has a beat, and you're often tapping your
fingers or toes.

You enjoy sounds of all types, but you also find sound can distract you
at the wrong time.

You are probably a gifted musician of some sort - even if you haven't
realized it.

Also a music lover, you tend to appreciate artists of all kinds.

You would make a great musician, disc jockey, singer, or
composer.

Monday, October 16, 2006

WEEKEND FUN !

Howzit!
Had a good weekend – a crazy lady in America phone pranked me on Saturday night, she and my sister were panning it all evening while I was busy with visiting in-laws etc, etc. At first I thought I was in MAJOR trouble folks – I kid you not. But when she said she was with the Dawn Unplugged Patrol – I could hardly believe who I was talking to.
Dawn, Dawn – it was so good to talk to you!! It was a really big surprise. It made my whole weekend!! You actually had me going there for a second – LOL!! You have become a very special person in my life, really. I am so glad we (three) have become friends – I really am. Now I KNOW I gotsta get me down to your place to visit!!

And other news, Donovan had a friend visit him for the weekend. The sweetest little boy. His name is Marius and he and Donny just balance each other so perfectly. I am so happy that my lil’ boy has finally found a tjommie who he can play with at school – and who will be going with him to primary school next year too! I never heard them – not once. The lugged all their toys in and out all weekend and played and played and played. I mixed some icing sugar with water and we had a “Bak ‘n Brou”* in the garden – that was a hit! I took them swimming and we went to church all together on Sunday and he just loved that too. They were really so good – I honestly thought I would have a “madhouse” for the weekend – but, I was very pleasantly surprised.


Seanie was sick the whole weekend, he had a fever off and on and slept quite a bit. He was not impressed I can tell you cause he missed the box-car racing at school and he couldn’t swim on the weekend either. I felt really sorry for the poor kiddo. But he’s a tuffy and he bounces back from setbacks very quickly. He was at school today, and I phoned him to remind to take his meds for his flu/cold. He is such a sweet kid.

What lies ahead this week? Let’s see, gym tonight Wednesday is prayer meeting and music practice, Thursday one of the relating leaders will be coming to do some input into our little church – so I really want to go to that. And on Sunday we have a family day! Jumping castles, braai**, volleyball, fellowship and good fun.

I will be stopping by your bloggy’s this week, I promise. Thanks to all of you for sticking around while I have been so scarce. I really appreciate it.

I better run before the Dawn Unplugged Blogger Patrol catches me blogging at work – hee hee!!

* Bak ‘n Brou – it’s what the pre-school kiddos sometimes get to do in school with cookies and icing and sprinkles and sweeties etc. The decorate and eat their own cookies – it’s lots of fun!!
** Braai – it’s the same as a barbeque – almost…

Friday, October 13, 2006

WHAT A WEEK PEOPLE!!!


It started off ok, Monday was the same as always – I can never get into “work mode” on a Monday. Tuesday was also ok – except I felt so tired and drained and I was really battling to keep my eyes open. I know myself well enough to know that this is usually a sign that I may be coming down with something, and we had a power failure on Tuesday afternoon at work too – someone cut or chopped into a cable somewhere (sigh). Then on Wednesday I woke up feeling so nauseous and weak it was just awful, I decided to go to work, I have felt nauseous before and coped with it, but by around 9:30 I was getting cold fevers so badly I had my heater on in my office. It is summer here, don’t forget. I was freezing and my body was aching all over and I had a KILLER headache. Eventually my boss said I should just go home. At around 11:30 I did just that, I crawled into bed – under my duvet and two blankets, and passed out. It’s the way my body copes with illness – to sleep. Anyway, I woke up suddenly at around 2:30 and ran for the bathroom and I was probably throwing up until about 6:00. Not regularly, but it didn’t stop till then. And the worst was I had to cook supper for the kiddos – I made them boerewors and srcambled eggs, it was the most difficult thing I have ever had to do, I was in tears most of the time cause I felt so sorry for myself, being so nauseous and sick and then still having to make food – I don’t think I will ever eat scrambled eggs again in my life - blegh!!! Hubby came home from Nelspruit (where he should have stayed the night) to be with me. I am so thankful he was there – he brought an *Energade (naartjie), oh it was like heaven in a glass with ice!! And he sat by me until I fell asleep. He’s just the best isn’t he? Thursday morning I stayed home, I woke up with such a headache and I was so terribly dizzy I decided not to attempt to be brave and face the world. And today I am back at work – but let me tell you, my neck muscles, shoulder muscles, and chest muscles are SO sore from throwing up, now it hurts just to laugh – you won’t believe the muscles your body uses to project stuff from it. I am not nauseous anymore – PTL!! I even had a burger just now – a small one, but it was so good. The funny thing is I have neer been prone to these kinds of bugs, this year I have had it twice - for the first time in my life!! It's just weird...

Oh and then today we had another power failure because the cables had been stolen. But they fixed it quite quickly. That’s why I was able to post something today.

Hope you all have a wonderful, relaxing weekend. I look forward to getting back into the swing of blogging again next week. Hugs and kisses!! - drukkies and soentjies!!

*It’s a sports drink, I don’t know what a naartjie is in any other language – anyone who can help here??

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

I AM HERE, JUST HECTICLY BUSY

Hi all, I know I haven't been posting much lately - or commenting much for that matter. I do apologise, but I just don't have the time. AS you all know I only have internet at work - and since I now doing double the work I barely get time to do anything!!

I do stop by to read you blogs as often as I can. So please don't desert me, I won't always be this busy. I miss you guys, but (in the famous word of Arnie in Terminator - I think it was...?) "I'll be back!"

Friday, October 06, 2006

SOME INTERESTING THINGS ABOUT MY BIRTHDATE...

My friend sent me this, I thought it was pretty neat. Dunno where she got it, I took out all the astrological stuff and nonsense (no offense to those who like that kind of thing) and kept the good stuff. Thought I would leave you with something to read over the weekend. Interesting hey...? Anyways - have a good one you all. "See" you on Monday.

Your birthday: - 2 March 1975 (WOOHOO)
Your date of conception was on or about 9 June 1974 which was a Sunday.
You were born on a Sunday
The year 1975 was not a leap year.
The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 30 March 1975.


As of 10/4/2006 7:13:51 AM EDT:
You are 31 years old.
You are 379 months old.
You are 1,648 weeks old.
You are 11,539 days old.
You are 276,943 hours old.
You are 16,616,593 minutes old.
You are 996,995,631 seconds old.

Top songs of 1975:
Love will keep us together – by Captain & Tennille
Island Girl – by
Elton John
Bad Blood – by Neil Sedaka
Philadelphia Freedom – by Elton John
Fly, Robin, Fly – by Silver Convention
He Don’t Love you – by Tony Orlando & Dawn
Rhinestone Cowboy – By Glen Campbell
That’s the way (I like it) – by KC & The Sunshine Band
Fame – by David Bowie
(Must have been a good year for Elton hey..?)

There are 149 days till your next birthday on which your cake will have 32 candles. Those 32 candles produce 32 BTUs, or 8,064 calories of heat (that's only 8.0640 food Calories!) . You can boil 3.66 ounces of water with that many candles. (Sheesh!! - I could probably braai (BBQ) an entire cow by the time I turn 50!!)

There are 82 days till Christmas 2006!

The moon's phase on the day you were born was waning gibbous (It's an almost full moon - very pretty)

Thursday, October 05, 2006

HE CARES FOR YOU

Do you have a concern or a worry or a question or a problem in your life, and you just don’t know what to do with it? You worry and wonder all the time about how to handle it? And your emotions get all in the way and your thoughts begin to run away with you and you feel completely overwhelmed by whatever it is?

You do?

Right, then this, is just for you.

When you are feeling like something is just too big for you to cope with and too heavy for you to carry, there is One who is big enough and more than strong enough to carry the burden for you. All you need to do is hand it over.

How? I hear you ask.

Simple, you get yourself alone with God and you tell Him all about it. Everything – each little detail that’s bugging you – you load it all off on Him and then you say “I am handing this over to you Lord. I don’t want to worry about it. I don’t want to be confused anymore my hands are open I am not holding on to it anymore. I give it to you for I know Your will is perfect and Your ways are not my ways.” And there you go, you give it to God and He will carry it for you. And then if you find yourself worrying again about the same thing – which we do cause, we are human. It simply means you have unconsciously taken it back from Him to carry again, so you just hand it back to Him. Even if you need to do this 100 times a day – eventually you will begin to trust that He will carry it and you don’t have to keep giving it back to Him. He will take it from you and you will suddenly realise one day that it is gone – because He dealt with it when you weren’t looking or while you were sleeping (so to speak).

Try it, I dare you – you will be pleasantly surprised, this I can guarantee you.










1 Peter 5v7: Casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

BLOGGY TOUR OF TESTIMONIES

(I was reading blogs yesterday and I found this lady Lauren over at Peach's blog and she is having a Bloggy Tour of Testimonies so I signed up on her blog for this too. Once you've read mine, go over to Created For His Glory and read Lauren's and then sign up too if you'd like to be a part of this.)

This is by no means my final testimony. I believe it will change more and more as the years go by - but this is where I am now. You see, I don't want to have a testimony only of what God did for me in the past and how He saved me, there is no futur in the past - I want a testimony after being saved too, of how He has used me and what He has continued to do for me. So this is what my testimony looks like for now, I will definitely be adding more to it one day...

I have known the Lord from a very young age. I can remember feeling His presence and love in my life from as young as 4 years old. I can remember experiencing heartache and pain on learning about His crucifixion and how incredible it was. I remember waking up at night because of a strange feeling and presence that would be inside me, around me and fill my bedroom, and although it would scare me a little, it was not the kind of fear that would make me flee to my mother’s bed.
(A while ago, I realized that, that feeling and that presence I experienced as a little girl was the Holy Spirit.)

I can remember sometimes at primary school, if I had no-one to play with I would play with Jesus, and chat to Him, and if I heard someone saying bad things or swearing or if I saw someone doing something wrong, I would simply quietly repeat the prayer that Jesus repeated on the cross to God “Father forgive them for they know not what they do.”
I remember in grade 2 a girl in my class asked me if I would teach her to pray – and I knew then that Jesus had a plan and a purpose for my life.

Sadly when I got to high-school, I lost some of that innocence and childlike faith and I strayed far away from my precious Jesus, and when I finished high-school I continued to stray. I made all my own decisions and in so doing made so many mistakes and my life went in a direction that was not in God’s plan for me.

Oh He never left me; it was me who left Him. I could always hear Him calling me and whispering to my heart, but I chose to ignore it. I chose to go another way, thinking I knew all there was to know and that I could do it without Him. It was my decision to smoke, my decision to drink – though none of them I did illegally, cos I was not underage when I did those things, not that that justified it in Gods eyes, but that was what I told myself. It was my decision to have sex before marriage and cause myself so much confusion and pain. I never uttered one swear word until I got to high-school. Then I started to cuss and swear – I never used Jesus’ name and though that also is not justification in Gods eyes, it was what I told myself.

It was during matric year in high-school and after matric that I started drinking and smoking, and because of this – I never got good marks on my final exams. All the time I could hear God calling my name, tugging on my heart and calling me home. But I continued to behave in a way that would be accepted by society and by my friends and I did things that I was so ashamed of and thought God would never be able to forgive, and so I shut out His voice completely from my life.

Then one day, after I was married, I realized that I could no longer hear or feel God in my life – though He had always been there, it was me who had turned away from Him and I felt a huge yearning and loss right in the middle of my heart. Oh how it hurt to know that I had lost my dearest friend, my Father, the only one who had always been there for me. How my heart broke when I realized that I had turned my back on the only one who loves me unconditionally. I had strayed so far from Him that I could no longer even hear his gentle whispers.

And I decided it was time to turn back to Jesus, so I began to hack back through all the thorny sins that had entangled themselves around my heart and I cut away at each one and once I had the forgiveness of Jesus and His hand finally caught mine through my struggling and pushing and reaching, my heart finally found rest. He pulled me to His chest and held me so close; He whispered to me and asked me if I knew how much He loved me. He removed all the sin that taken root in my heart and He told me I was His child, forgiven and washed clean by His blood and that He was so so happy that I had returned to Him at last.

Since that day I have again experienced the wonderful presence of Jesus in my life, and I will live my life in a way that is pleasing only to my savior, my Precious Jesus. I want to be a servant and I take comfort in knowing that He loves me unconditionally and never EVER recalls nor remembers past and forgiven sins. My Jesus loves me and He is always with me and my life will be empty and meaningless without Him. I am living for Him, for Jesus, and I cannot wait for the day that I get to see His beautiful face and hear His voice when He says “Well done, my good and faithful servant.”

Monday, October 02, 2006

TO SHARE A LITTLE...

What did I learn from this LTT? Let me give a little testimony…

First of all, I was healed!! God healed me of the headaches I always suffered from so terribly. On the very first day of the actual LTT, Monday afternoon, Tyrone prayed for healing, for everyone. I didn’t even notice that I was healed until the next day!! LOL! Usually, every night before bed I take headache pills, but on Monday night I didn’t – I just went straight to bed. And on Tuesday – after the worship practice I was just chilling in the stands when I suddenly realized I didn’t have a headache, and I remembered that I hadn’t taken meds either!!! I just give God all the glory for healing me – I didn’t even ask to be healed, but he did it anyway!! And I haven’t taken headache pills since then. WOOHOO!!

Now to get a little deeper… time to get out the tissues ladies…

On day two, Tyrone was making points on the Signs of Success, of being a Christian. His 8th point was Being Submitted. And God spoke straight to my heart and what He said really made me rethink who I in Christ and what people see when they are in my company. Especially my family. He said that if I am not completely submitted to Him – 100% - all of me, submitted, that I will not see salvations in my family. I am the one they look to for an example of a Christian, and if they do not see a person totally sold out to Jesus, then they will not see Jesus in me. If I don’t give everything of myself to Him – and I hold on to parts for me, it will show and they will say “Ja, you know, she’s saved and all, but look at how she does this, or that. And listen to how she speaks sometimes…” etc, etc. And that was why, on the last day – Friday, Tyrone spoke again and his message really hit me hard. He preached on “What do THEY see?” They being everyone I come into contact with. And He also spoke on having Vision, for your life, your church (If you are a leader) and a vision for your marriage. I can tell you when he spoke of a vision for your marriage, I must have been the only woman in a hall of 5 000 people who was brought to tears. I was so ministered to by God that I couldn’t help but cry, He spoke to my heart so plainly – I mean, I have always had a vision for my marriage, but I never really included God in my vision. After Tyrone preached we had to go back to our choir stands as he wanted to sing “Be Thou My Vision”, needless to tell you all, I couldn’t sing – I stood in my choir stand with huge tears rolling down my cheeks when I read and listened to the words of this hymn. It was as if I was hearing it for the first time. God really spoke to my heart and I know now my life will never be the same. With God as my Vision – the question of my character and what will “they” see will be a woman who is completely sold out to Jesus Christ.

OVERWHELMED...


WOW!! Is about all I can say about the week I just had. There are no words to describe the intensity of it all. The learning, the hard work and everything else – it was simply overwhelming. In fact, I am still trying to just let it all sink in. I am completely changed from the inside. I will never be the same person again. I was stretched, convicted, ministered to, and loved – and the fellowship… well, there is no way to describe it.
Let me see if I can give you at least a little something of what it was like for me.

As a member of the choir and worship team, I had to be there earlier than the rest of the people from the church that were going. Three days earlier. There were two choirs, each one of about 60+ people, situated on each side of the HUGE stage. There were 4 “bands” with separate worship leaders for each band. The stage included a String section, Wind section, Percussion, TWO keyboards, one with about 4 levels and one ordinary one, electric guitars, base guitars, 3 backup vocalists and TWO lead worshippers with a plug in acoustic guitar each! Now each band would come and do a bit of practicing and we (the choirs, and the string and wind sections) would practice with them. Each band would then go off for the rest of the day after their practicing time was done, or they would be “off” until they had to come in to practice. But the choir would be there ALL day cause we had to practice with each band. All in all I think that in two and a half days we did about 18 hours of practicing. It was exhausting, on my voice and my feet – but I will do it again in a heartbeat. We then had to be at the hall and hour before the doors opened to practice a little more. So there was no lying in a bit in the mornings…
I got to know the people in my choir very well and got quite attached to them. They are a very special group of people, of all ages and races.

When we had to leave on Friday – it was a very emotional and tearful goodbye. You feel like you want to go home – but you kinda want to take it all home with you…
When I got home on Friday I was emotionally, spiritually and physically exhausted, and on the verge of tears ALL the time. I was completely overwhelmed.

I am happy to be back, and I am definitely going again next year.

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